Could this be a sign

I noticed this afternoon that my throat really started hurting. Normally I would be pissed that my throat hurts since I'm a big baby and hate to feel sick. Well, then I got to thinking and put two and two together to figure out that the last sore throat I had was during the 2WW that led to my BFP. OMG! I went back and looked at my chart and my sore throat started 4-5 DPO and today just happens to be 4-5 DPO. OMG! Could this be? I'm trying not to get my hopes up, but also before I figured this out I was at the grocery store and saw a girl that is due a couple weeks before my EDD and she is very much showing and I didn't feel the hatred I have felt towards every other pregnant lady I have seen since the loss. Am I finally healing or am I pregnant? I really hope it is both but being pregnant would really help my healing process. Now that I'm driving myself crazy I will have to wait it out and see what happens. If this turns out to just be a sore throat I will be crushed but it is really making me feel better thinking more into it.

One of those days

I had one of those days where anything that can go wrong, will. Today is my first day of summer. I had my last day of school yesterday. I work part-time waiting tables at a local restraunt. Well today I should have just stayed home. We were really busy and I don't usually work during lunch(which is a completely different dynamic than dinner)so I was all out of whack. I broke 3 dishes, I pissed off a customer(I don't know what I did) who complained to my boss, I keyed in an oder wrong , I forgot one customer's salad, and I gave the wrong to go order to someone. Finally one of the cookss told em that I should just go back home and go to bed and wake up tomorrow. It was rough.

I also had my betas checked again yesterday and they were at 3. I have to go back in two weeks to have them checked again. The good news is that I think I finally ovulated. My temp has been up for the last three days, but Ovusoft thinks that I'm in my infertile phase based on past cycles so it won't say that I ovulated. Hopefully in two weeks I will see that little plus sign that once made me so happy.

What is going on...

I have no idea what is going on with my body anymore. I'm on CD 26 and I don't really think I've ovulated yet. This is driving me crazy. I 've always been so regular that all this not knowing what to expect is driving me crazy. I've decided that we will just have sex every other day until I start my period or I'm KTFU! Here's my ridiculous chart in case you might be interested...http://www.tcoyf.com/forum/chart.asp?id=ashs

One more day of class. YAY!

More Blood Tests

OMFG!! Seriously, I have to have another blood test on Monday. The nurse called this morning and my levels are at 7. Seven, are you kidding me. I've read that they only have to be at a 5 for your body not to think it's pregnant anymore but I still have to have another test. My arms seriously look like someone beat me up! I hate needles and I hate giving up my blood. All these blood draws make me so scared to get pregnant again and I hate that I feel this way. Anyway, hopefully since I went from 24 to 7 in one week I will be low enough on Monday not to have to have it happen again. Plus, I think I must be getting lower since I had a ton of EWCM yesterday and I think I might be about ready to ovulate. I've seen this acronym on the Nest before, FLB(f'ing like bunnies)and this is TMI but we have been FLB since the D&C so surely it will work in our favor.

Another Dr. Appt.

I had to go in today for another blood draw to make sure my HCG numbers are finally back to O. Well, Saturday night I noticed this little bump on the back of my leg and didn't think much about it. Then yesterday it got a lot bigger and redder and was warm to the touch. Today was even worse. I got an appointment and apparently I got bit by something and had an allergic reaction. I'm on antibiotics and hoping it goes away soon, it kind of hurts. I also had my blook drawn and lucky for me she got it right the first time instead of poking me 2 or more times like usual. I think she felt bad though because she saw the bruise I have from the last blood draw that she did. I'm expecting the nurse to call tomorrow with my numbers.

In other news, I only have 2 days of class left. I have three things left to turn in. One is due tomorrow(it's done) and then the other two things are due next Monday(they are not done yet). Today was my last day with my kindergartners and that was quite sad. Here is a picture of me with them. It's quite cute I might add.

Under 200 days...

So, I post on The Nest. Quite a lot actually, but I can't figure out how to get the stupid website to understand that I'm not pregnant anymore. I've changed my profile back to TTC but it still tells me what week I would be in and how many days I would have left. Well, today is the day that I would have broke the 200 day mark. It would also be the first day of my 12th week. :(

I'm attending a bridal shower today, it was my way out of a baby shower. I'm excited though, it's for a girl I grew up with and her name is Ashley too!

If you are reading this and know how to correct the problem on The Nest please help me out.

AHHH

So, I thought I would be ovulating this week. Actually I thought I ovulated yesterday since my temperature went up today. But, I got a call from the nurse today and she said my HCG numbers from Tuesday were 24. I don't know if this means I can ovulate yet or not. I have to have them checked again on Monday. I took a HPT because I'm a crazy lady and it was negative. I think that is probably a good thing. Part of me wishes I ovulated earlier than I think and the numbers are up because I'm pregnant again but I really don't think that is possible since I would have had to ovulate last week sometime to have numbers like that on Tuesday. AHH! I'm so confused with my body now.