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Weight Watchers

Let me begin by saying I HATE DIETING! With that said, I started Weight Watchers yesterday. I'm a very picky eater and I love sweets. I'm hoping that by just being more conscious of what I'm eating I will see some results.

I also saw my Dr. today about PPD. He was very understanding and helped me realize that what I'm feeling is normal. I told him that I can go from sad and crying to mad and yelling in no time. He said that's normal and that I need to make sure I'm getting plenty of sleep. I have been lacking sleep and the only way I can explain it is by saying that when I have bad days I'm so afraid the next day will be bad day that I don't want to fall asleep so that I won't wake up to a new day. When I'm in bed and Corey and Zoe are asleep then it's just me and I can be just me by myself. I can watch TV in quiet, I can think about things that have been on my mind, basically I don't have to worry about anyone else at that moment. He's going to have me start taking medication and hopefully we will see some improvements. I told him that some days I just feel like running away, leaving everything behind and not looking back. He told me that it's normal to feel that way because things are different now and harder than when it was just me and Corey. Luckily he didn't make me talk too much since I was fighting back tears as soon as he walked in the room. I'm hoping things will get better and I will start to feel more like the old Ashley.

One funny thing that he said was that the medication can cause a loss of libido and if that is the case and causes problems we can switch me to something else. Then he said that if Corey ends up coming in for depression then he will know he needs to switch my medication. ;)

I got a job!

Last week I interviewed for a special ed. para job and I got it. It's not my dream job and it's certainly not why I went back to school for two and half years and spent way too much money to continue my education but it's a job. With the budget cuts that the schools are facing and the lack of actual teaching jobs I decided I might as well start looking into my other options.

I'm actually really excited since I won't have to drive anywhere except about 6 blocks from my house, I don't have to be there until 8 and I'm off at 3. That means I leave the school at 3, not stay after to help students, stay after to plan, stay after to get things ready for the next day, or work on grading papers at night. Plus, all the days that are off for students are off for me too! I will work 8 to 3 and then come and hang out with Zoe for the rest of the afternoon/evening. So while I wouldn't complain about doing all those other teacher duties I'm going to love all the extra time I will be able to have with Zoe this way.

What a weekend!

Man this weekend flew by! Friday we got bright and early so we could drive three hours to watch my brother graduate from the Police Academy. I enjoyed it because Corey graduated 3 years ago and it was nice to see how much our lives have changed since his graduation. We left Zoe with Corey's stepmom since we weren't sure how she would handle 6 hours in the car. We missed her terribly but it was nice to have the day together.

Saturday we just hung out at home, went for a walk, and then dropped Zoe off at my mom's(it seems we didn't have her much this weekend but it's the first time(s) we have been alone since she was born) and went out to dinner for our 4th anniversary which was last Thursday. We also ran some errands, mostly for Zoe, getting formula, wipes, bigger bottles, you know the drill! After we picked her up and get her settled for the night, I went with some friends to the casino. That was a good time! I felt like Ashley! I had a couple drinks and sat at the bar and laughed and laughed with my friends.

Sunday we gave Corey's his gift and he loved his Shutterfly card! We hung out for a little bit and then went to his Dad's to visit and then went to my Mom and stepdad's house for dinner and a little Wii!

Such a fast weekend but a fun one!

Beyond frustrated!

Okay, I can't get the scale to budge. I'm so frustrated. I have been really watching what I eat, we don't eat out near as often as we used to, I've been doing the 30DS, NMTZ and walking, and I've also been tracking my calories on Sparkpeople. I just can't get the scale to move and I haven't even been losing inches like I was in the beginning. I'm so upset that nothing is working. I feel okay with my body until I see myself in a picture or find out that my BMI puts me in the overweight category. I'm just so disgusted! I know there is the whole "nine months on, nine months off" things, but honestly I don't believe it. I dropped 30 pounds in a matter of weeks right after Zoe was born and now my weight won't budge. It's so irritating! I took more pictures today and I'm going to post them, not because I'm proud but because I need to see the proof that I need to work harder I guess.

May 11 May 31 Today

May 11 May 31 Today

May 11 May 31 Today

Call me crazy, but I really do see results, especially in the side and back view photos. I just don't know why the darn scale won't move and why I haven't lost inches. I guess maybe things are just repositioning and that is why it looks different. Maybe, I don't know. Okay well Zoe is still sleeping so I better go Shred while I have the chance.

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2 Months!

Zoe had her two month well baby visit today and is doing great! She weighs 9 lbs 10 oz and is 22 inches long. She got three shots and did really well. She cried for a just a minute and then fell asleep while she was being monitored. She is so much more alert now and loves to look around. She likes to be carried facing out so she can see what is going on. She also likes to look up at the trees in our front yard. She enjoys taking walks with mommy and dadddy and last night she even stayed awake for the thing. We're going to attempt to take her to the pool sometime soon. Hopefully she will enjoy having her little toes in the water. Corey is looking forward to his first Father's Day this week and we are also celebrating our 4th wedding anniversary on Thursday!




Look at that neck control!




Sticking her tongue out!





She looks like she is ready for the Derby!




The best smile we could get!